I lack creativity with journal names. Poor me.
Anyway, I leave for New York in a week. A bit nervous, as is, and I need to find a ride to the police station so I'll be able to load onto the bus. x_x Maybe my mother will be able to get off work, or a friend will give me a ride. I seriously need to get a car and my license, or at least find some where to practice driving so I could feel comfortable when going to get my license.
Due to financial troubles, I don't know what I'm going to do regarding college... I have until May to pay the deposit, but in order to sign up for classes when I go to Open House in April, it needs to be payed by the 23rd of March. Heh, heck of a lot a scholarship is doing me there. XD I find this as somewhat ironic.

For AP English I had to read Camus' The Stranger. Surprisingly, I was able to relate to Meursault quite a bit. I thought everyone would, but apparently the majority of the class didn't at all... I believe that I am an absurdist. Upon thinking about a little response-essay I had to do in class yesterday, I came to the conclusion that the only real meaning life has, if any, is that which we give it. When doing my homework on researching Existentialism, absurdism, and Nihilism, I found what I had thought of paralleled that to the Wikipedia definition of absurdism, so there you go. I guess that's why I felt a "connection" (for lack of a better word) with The Stranger.

I've also come to a few other self-realizations within the past week: 1) my hair, no matter how hard I may try, will not be the pretty, curly, high hair of my sisters. Volumizing only makes it get wider, and scrunching doesn't hold. However, this does not get me down because I want it all cut off anyway. 2) I think my eyes are green. You may think this is silly- "How can she not know what color her eyes are?" My five sisters and father have clear, blue eyes, and I have my mother's eyes, which is a blueish-greenish color that reminds me of the DA layout scheme. I have never gotten a clear answer on their color of being green or blue. During lunch my friends and I got on the subject of eye color, and one told me they were blue, another green/gray... so who knows... I like the idea of having green eyes, so that is what I shall be telling myself they are.

On a lighter note, in April I am going to Raleigh to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show in a theater. I'll be sure to bring my supplies. x) I may attempt dressing up, but that may go beyond my expenses, unless I found something resembling a Transylvanian's garb at the local Goodwill.

On a darker note, the 27th marks the anniversary of Maizie's disappearance. >_<